Please look at my post 2 down. The title is something like "We're #9!" Please read it and pay close attention to the "weight being lifted off my back" and blah, blah, blah.
Now, all I have to say is "WHAT A CROCK OF DOODY!!!! What was I thinking?!?!?! What was I drinking! What phase was the moon in that day! I'm not patient! I'm not just, "oh so easy going..." I'm going crazy! It's been 7 weeks and I'm looking at my agencies yahoo group like an addicted yahoo!
This is how the day starts off to my group habit. I get to work and I pull up my group. Look for anything new the night before. Scan and nothing....(1)I minimize the screen so I can check it later in the day. I grab a cup of joe, check my e-mail, say "hello" to everyone starting off their day at work and check the group one more time in case (2). Then I proceed with the day, (The screen is still minimized). About 11:30 a.m. I'm ready for a snack. I grab a granola bar and pull the screen up just to "see" (3). I usually go to lunch at 1:00p.m., look again (4) and then head out of the office. I grab food get back to my desk an hour later and........(5) Towards 3:00 things in my office slow down. I take a quick peek (6) and look for things to catch up on. About 6:00p.m. I'm closing up of the office shutting down the computer after I look to see if I had missed any thing (7) and go to the gym. Home from the gym and turn on the computer to look at all the stuff I've seen before (8) I have dinner with Mr Stud (my hubbie!) watch a little tv, read my book and of course I check one more time. (9) I'm sick!
I'm addicted to that group! Like it's crack or cocaine or both mixed together! Well to tell the truth I've never had a drug addiction before, but if I did, it would be like that! I can't get enough of it! It's like I keep logging in expecting to read, "Hello Amanda, Your kid is here!" or like whoo-wee...6 referrals for boys went out today and I'm next in line. Or I'm going to miss my own referral!
So I'm giving my self a 5 day challenge! I'm going cold turkey! I'm not looking at that group till Sunday evening! I'm going to become a free woman! Enjoy the element of surprise by casually surfing on Sunday. Not like a mother bear looking for her child in the yahoo.group. Plus, I truly believe a watched pot never boils.
So, I'll let you know how my 12 steps go. And maybe there will be an awesome surprise for me on Sunday. Night.
5 comments:
I love it; a five day challenge! I hope great things await you on Sunday:) Something has to happen this week, surely! I completely understand the whole "going crazy" thing now too. If you could just push a bit harder; I'm ready for a referral;)
Heather
U are so funny! I too can use a break. I am looking at the group 25 times a day plus the blogs its too much! we will miss u though!
My husband and I are adopting from Ethiopia. Our agency is AGCI, we were looking for people who are and have walked the journey that we are just starting. We would love and advice, help,stories, etc. We want to connect with as many Agci families that we can because no one else we know understands what we are going thru.
Hope to stay in touch
You're killing me! I was the same way... a total psycho-nutbar-crazy lady obsessed with the whole thing! :D
Hang in there, babe!
I just read this blog....I know a little after the fact, but that was a funny one (5 days cold turkey). You must laugh when you go back and read through your thoughts throughout the process.... it's very intriging to read.....but your mind is at ease, Miles is here!
--Angela
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